living my life
sometimes you have to feel pain for you to appreciate what you had and still have…
3 months is just a short time but believe me or not, it taught me to be strong and to live my life being contented with the people that can really appreciate me and can give me a genuine love.
3 months: thoughts about love, about him and about the future that we want to have, like living in a fairy tale, right?( but it can really happen, for some people that found their someone )… Selfishness, all the things that you want is for the two of you…
until… one day our story showed its ending… leaving me with my dreams, to remain dreams forever…
first thing I felt? nothing! I cant feel anything, until everything sinked on my mind. "Yeaah! ITs Over and DOne", the only words in my head… I cried felt alone and Fooled,.. then questions kept me thinking, "Does he loved me?, did he mean everything that he said to me?," ahhh, ofcourse not! how did he fool me if he loved me, … wow, what an expert?, how he did that to a family that trusted him so much?… I can`t believe that someone can really do that (like in a movie)…
I looked for the bible so I can forgive him for what he did at that moment of time, all i pray? " please forgive him, Im not expecting or asking him to come back to me, but please dont let him hurt people again, and make him realize that we have to give true love and dont let him fool again"
ahhh, i felt better after…
God is so powerful, even with just a prayer, it helps…
though im not that really over with him, atleast, im OK!
And sooner or later all the pain will gone,.. I will never forget him but I will forget the pain that first love gave me…
Atleast I learned and ready to find someone better or best…
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