the real drama queen

I used to relate myself to a song "everybody`s changing",

‘So little time Try to understand that I’m Trying to make a move to stay in the game I try to stay awake and remember my name But everybody’s changing And I don’t feel the same’

so true, coz i really don`t feel like changing, until a friend of mine, told me to stop and love myself, if i want to be happy…

Honestly, I don’t know how to start it, but I have to, it’s exactly a year since that feeling captured me… I will never ever forget that, but I think that’s the only way to move on and start, I have to forget every single thing, It seems like, I’m the only person who can’t move on,..

I always give myself an excuse and consideration that it’s hard to go on and forget, but it’s not, it’s just that I don’t want to…

I know I’m acting like a fool every time I remember what happened and still get affected by him…

So much of him, I have to concentrate to myself,.. I’m saying this and I have to do it, I have to it, I have to do it…

I don’t know how, but I have to…

I need to concentrate to my work, friends and self…

I have to love myself from now on, not anyone else, not him…

~ by magicalrock-12 on August 8, 2007.